>NiTeZ OuT<

Hey...Itz me feeling tired writing blogs...Haha...But worth writing coz i get to express what i feel and even tell what has been happening to me lately...So more thingz have been happening so juz sit back read up and listen to the new songs i juz posted...*Smilez*...

Guezz wad...I passed out from my BMT on Friday morning and man i was so happy that my first step in army lyfe is over...Overall i think i did all i could to do my best for BMT...I had my 24km route march last Monday at East Coast Park...It was super tiring and hungry and sleepy too coz we started marching from about 9pm to 4am...But i guezz our heart kept us going thinking how proud our family would be to see us do our best...I still remember one of my seargants said [Tough Times Don't Last But Tough Men Do]...We then had our Pass Out Parade on friday...I was on the front row keeping still waiting for commands to be given...I njoyed myself and felt really proud to be standing tall now finally a soldier...I know i can improve myself in times to come so i will continue to keep going...

Aniway...Went out wif Bob,Lala,Ryan & Atika for sheesha at Clarke Quay...As usual janji Melayu ehk Bob...Haha...Headed to Clarke Quay and it was packed with soccer fans from MAN UTD & LIVERPOOL...We took a seat at the Marakeesh and ordered Cappucino sheesha with two mineral water each cost $9...Damn itz so expensive...But what to do...Haha...After that we headed off to go eat at Long John Silvers...And yar Man Utd lost 4-1...Haha...We then seperate ourselves...Ryan & Atika headed home while me,Bob & Lala followed me to the Arsenal fan club...Met my fren there who bought for me a cool jersey from KL...FOC Dude...Haha...Me and Bob went crazy watching the match and it was worth it as Arsenal won 4-0...Yep!!!

Then,off we go took a taxi with my fren where he paid for the fee...WOW...Really appreciate his kindness...Thx dude...

And so here i am posting blogs on and on...But yar i am heading off to Malacca around 5plus am...So gotta go and will be back to post more...Tc aitez...

~FiR~

>HoW LoVe HaS AfFeCtEd mE<

LoVe is an easy word to pronounce and spell...
But everytime I think about LoVe itz so hard to explain...
The perfect word for me to describe LoVe is 'CoMpLiCaTeD'...

I do think that falling in LoVe is sweet and romantic...
I smile to myself when i think about the LoVe that i had before...
I feel that sharing all this can relax my mind abit...
I feel too tired keeping all this confidential...

Believe it or not the first LoVe i had was in my first year in ITE...
Yep!!!Itz true alrite...It felt like moon...
But i had to let her go bcoz she broke a big promise...
One more thing was i felt my family could not accept her over her attitude...
But i am glad she moved on and found a replacement...

My second LoVe was in the same year...
It was private that only a few people knows...
It actually started when i bcame a listening ear for her...
Then it changed as me lending her a shoulder to cry on...
As time goes our feelings for each other grows too...
But i was wrong coz she only used me to forget her ex...
From then on we parted ways and now she is happy with her new LoVe...

Ermm...My third LoVe was back in my second year of ITE...
I really felt that she was the person i was looking for...
It was the first time i celebrated Valentines Day wif sumone...
I specially came to her house to meet her and pass her the rose...
Guezz wad most girls dream of i did specially for her...
I stayed up the whole night to watch her sleep soundfully...
I also looked after her at her house when she was sick...
I spared most of my time to spend with her...
I even did sorry cards for her when i made a mistake...
I thought that giving my heart out would impress her...
But guezz wad she ask for a breakup to say she iz not ready...
And next thing i knew she was with another guy...
Thiz was the biggest LoVe breakdown i had...
I cried every single nite thinking of it...
But then i moved on...

I started to not believe LoVe anymore but then crushes started to appear...
It was one of my classmates...-F****-
I guezz they think i dun realize it but i noe a crush developed between us...
It started when i joke around with her...
Then it build further when i started to have feelings for her...
I even sacrificed taking long train rides instead of the faster bus rides...
I have that shy and nervous feeling everytime i took pictures with her...
I even set a pic we took at appreciation dinner as main pic of my hp...
Well I knew that she also had feelings for me...
And I would like to say sorry for not accepting her...
Not bcoz she is not my type...
But itz coz i dun wan to hurt myself the same way i did before...
I swear i felt regret when i knew she was meeting sumone new...
But i guezz my fate is to be single...
Haizzzz...

Erm...People may think that i am enjoying my lyfe being single...
But for me itz only partly true...
Everytime i go out for a walk i feel as if i am the only lonely soul...
Looking at couples around sumtimes makes my heart ache being alone...
Suddenly thinking of my past makes me quite sad though...

But not to worry coz i will feel better sumhow...
Thru music which helps me alot...
Thru frenz whom i can relax with...

Most importantly is the motto that i always kept in my mind...
[I Live Lyfe Once So I Live Lyfe The Fullest]
[Forgive And Forget And Dont Hold Any Grudges]