>AlWaYz HeRe<<

I need to let thiz outta my mind..
Juz read up n u'll know wads up..

I dunno y i have to face thiz feelin time n again..
I guezz thiz iz lyfe fer a guy like me..Hmm..
Only to help abit here n there..
Lendin a listening ear or a shoulder to lean on..
But maybe thatz what i am fer in thiz lyfe..
To onli juz be a great fren n all i can tink of..
Even when lyfe has been unfair to me..
Where i have to find out tingz i wish i never have to know..
The lies..Being cheated..N stuff..Haizz..
I have gone thru too much..
N i guezz all i can do now iz to live lyfe lyk i used to before..
Nufin more i can say..
Juz have to be me..

>ItZ jUz mE<

Heylo i'm finally here to rite up a post n itz kinda 1am..So yar itz the best tyme..Haha..Had been quite long since i wrote one..Itz gonna turn a year soon since i left skul n been in the army..A nurse i am to be n a driver now in army..How fast tyme goes but how much tingz can happen during thiz amount of tyme..I wonder why..Hmm..

So yar many tingz have been happenin around me everywhere..The onli ting that never change iz me..The usual old self bein alone in every single day..But wad i have been doin iz sumhow by helpin around sum frenz by listenin to their problemz..I love what i am doin now n even pick up sum stuff bout lyfe here n there from the events of lyfe..

Ermm..Sumfin interesting i have to say iz i have been chosen to go to Australia fer trainin from 8 Nov-28 Nov..I was shocked coz i dunno y of all the guyz den i am chosen..Summore itz free n yar we get the last few day fer us to relax n go shoppin..Haha..

Btw..Been tinkin bout lyfe afta NS n wad i'm gonna do n stuff..Tinkin of either werkin in IMH(More pay n more relax) or NUH(More used to werkin dere n more frenz)..N yep tink of gettin myself a weekend car maybe..N more new stuffs to come..So stay tuned..Haha..

Okay den..I have to go oredi..No idea when i'll drop by to post again..So tc..N yar to all my frenz stay gud to each other..No point fighin over small stuff..Clear all the misunderstandingz..Stay happi..Bubbye den..Itz me signin out.. =)

-WaItIn FeR mY OwN TaYlOr sWiFt-

-i WaNdEr iF ItZ u-

WhIsTlInG AwAy

Hey peepz..Thought i should drop by to post a blog on wads up fer a while..Been quite a while since i wrote sumfin bout me..Plenty of tyme to blog cumer no mood ngan lazy je..Hehe..

Erm..I finally completed my driving course last Friday and 2nite i will be booking in lyke i used to..Had been njoyin stayin out which is the 8am-5pm basis though..Itz tyme to stay in camp again n yar bye2 to weekday shows n late nite sleepin..Haha..Btw..Now all the responsibility iz on me..I have to drive alone to places i never went b4 by my own onli with directions i tink from a piece of route map..Haha..Sure to lose my way at least once coz i am pretty damn bad at directions..Haha..But then i will try my best to have as much fun as i can..

Btw..Last Saturday went out to Bugis to do sum window-shoppin n relaxing of my mind..N guezz wad i wanted to have dinner at Raffles Hospital Banquet n i terserempak wif Suhaimi n Nysa..Den i joined them so we had a chat n soonafter ternampak Haikhal plak..A big coincidence rite..Haha..Ended up we joined Haikhal n hiz SM frenz to go for sheesha..Had quite a lot of fun..

Aniway..Fer da whole of the week that juz passed..I got my GST money 100 bucks..Spent it buying pizza fer da whole family..Buying myself a pair of jeans n two pieces of tees..Melampau ehk mentang2 ader duit kn..Haha..N not to ferget ytd i went out wif Muzhaffar n Sufiyan to catch a movie at The Cathay..The Haunting In Connecticut..It was a damn cool n scary show until there was sumone terpekik kejap den most of us in the theatre laughed..Haha..

And yar..I have been listening to quite a few Malay songz which i dun usually listen to nowadayz..Berjiwang lah dikatakan..But itz meaningful n very soothing to listen to at tymez..

To wrap up my post i would lyke to say that:
IN LYFE,IN DREAMS N IN LOVE THERE IZ NOTHING THAT IZ IMPOSSIBLE...

~FiR~SiGnInG OuT~

May His Music Live Forever...

TRIBUTE TO THE KING OF POP 'MICHAEL JACKSON'

(1958-2009)

AN INSPIRATION TO ALL

HE IS AN ALL-TIME MUSIC LEGEND

HIS MUSIC AND LEGACY WILL LIVE FOREVER

The LuCk I Will Never Have

Hey peepz..Itz me here feeling happy,excited,sad n lotz more..I guezz itz normal fer a person lyk me to go thru all thiz..

So guezz wad..I juz passed my tp test ytd n officially got my military driving license..Hahax..I got abit nervous fer the test and my mind was not thinking straight coz of a msg i got rite b4 the test..But with God's Will,i passed my test...WoOhOo!!!I felt relax now knowing i passed..No more pressured tests..Haha..

So wad i have been doing the past few weekends huh..I guezz i have been chillin out myself at the cinemas watchin movies..I am used to watching alone coz my frenz are bz wif their gfs so i dun mind..I watched (Star Trek)(Angels & Demons)(Terminator Salvation)(Blood:The Last Vampire)..N yar will watch (Drag Me To Hell) 2day..Hehe..

I tink itz rite if i have to fade away or dissapear if i know i shud..Coz sumtymez being transparent wun bring hurt to myself..I dun mind not being happi as long as i am not hurt n i dun tink i can reappear back in there so 4get me..

Datz all i can rite fer now...Wun be updating fer quite a while...So wen i am ready i may rite again...Have fun in ur lyfe...Be true to everione...N stay happi...

~FiR~

TiMiNg Iz PaCkEd

Heyloo...Thousand apologies fer not updating my blog fer awhile now...But i oredi told ya i will be back sooner or later so here i am sitting in front of this dumb cpu riting my blog...Hehe...Erm...Not much have been happening lately...Juz the normal ME lyfe...

Yep...So i have been doing my driving course fer NS...Quite tiring and hard but worth the while...Been booking out on saturday afternoons & booking in on sunday nite...My weekends are not enuff...ARGH!!!Btw...I passed my highway code test on the second attempt with me doing bout 10 mins onli and scorin 48/50 fer it...I have learnt to drive two kind of vehicles which iz the landrover and a 3-tonner...Yep...Itz scary though coz i have to drive it on the public road with my vehice speed limit not exceeding 50km/hr...Veri slow seh...Hehe...And i passed my highway situational prob test,my parkin test & my height lashing test...Now left with TP test then i can say that my military license is in my hands...Hehe...Cannot wait fer it...

I bought a new boring hp though in earli april...Gt it fer ard $90++...Quite lousy the camera & no bluetooth but itz good i coz have MP3 & radio...I brought it to camp though even though i cnt bring a cam hp...Hehe...Thank god i gt the good progress award...Anot i wun have money to even buy a new hp...

Lyfez been good to me...Gt my nursing cert...Gt good progress award...Gt new hp...Oredi half a year in NS...Became a driver fer NS...All of it iz good...Had been coping with lyfe pretty well juz that getting more & more tired...

Sumfin i scribbled on a paper & turned cool...Change the star to she...Hehe...
~Star shine...Star bright...Star lighten up my lyfe...Star that makes me smile day n nite...
~She shine...She iz bright...She lightens up my lyfe...And she makes me smile day n nite...

Kay den...Datz all fer da post...Be back soon enuff wen i got da tyme yar...Bubbye...Take Care...

~FiR~

Something I Wrote...

I knew that special someone is finally here...
I felt that you were the one...
I am the guy you are with each tyme...
I thought love was like wonderland..
Where it is about hugs and kisses...
But the love was never meant for me...
I felt there was something amiss...
You were keeping sumfing from me...
I asked myself what it was...
Living on searching for answers...
My senses finally showed me the truth...
You were rite there cheating on me...
The truth was hurting me...
But I thought we could still be together...
Not until the day she left me...
I felt like I was stabbed in the heart...
Teardrops roll down my eyes everynite...
I wish I could end my lyfe...
My lyfe was falling apart...
I wish GOD showed me the way...
That is where i learnt about faith...
I kept myself strong somehow...
I am still believing till now...
I noe I will get back to the right path...
Someday & Somehow I will be wif sumone...
Guiding me through out of all this...

QuIcKo UpDaTeO!!! =)

Hey...Been feeling fine lately...Onli tinking bout sumfing datz hanging around my mind rite now and wif no answers...

Guezz wad...I am now an army driver as my vocation...Was so happi about thiz...New bunk mates and they are okay and quite funny people...Haha...Aniway i am back from camp today for Nights Out from 5pm to 1030pm...I juz got to know that i am going for my driving course on 30 April...End of thiz month but still itz considered veri near though...Never drove a car before so confirm nervous...Haha...Come home to rest for awhile & rite about wads happen so far...

Erm...I have been playing soccer for last two Saturdays & it was for my brothers team...Quite fun coz get to know my brothers frenz more...Won 1-0 for da first game but lost 4-0 for the second game...But itz okay coz at least we did our best...Never give up or maybe lose with pride...Haha...

So last Saturday evening went out wif Bob,Lala,Amy & Nisa...Firstly,met them at Grandlink where they went karaoke...I dont quite like singing though coz when i sing confirm tingkap pecah seh...Sedap sangat ah suare...Haha...Then,we headed to Orchard where we went Lucky Plaza to eat...The food was nice but it wasnt enuff lah...Too bad...Then,we saw Noh Alam Shah the striker from Tampines Rovers & Singapore team...Quite action ah da guy...Dont care lah...Haha...We then had a walk until Amy and Nisa decide to go home...Then Bob,Lala and me went to Arsenal club to watch soccer match...We ordered food and drinks and did a little catchup on things happening around...Bob even asked me about some posts in my blog...I only gave him clues but too bad not the truth...Erm..aniway Arsenal won 2-0 for dat game...Haha...Happi seh coz my childhood team won...

K lah...I guezz datz all i am gonna rite for now...Tired sey but then still need to book in...Bubbye den...Take care guyz...

~FiR~

>NiTeZ OuT<

Hey...Itz me feeling tired writing blogs...Haha...But worth writing coz i get to express what i feel and even tell what has been happening to me lately...So more thingz have been happening so juz sit back read up and listen to the new songs i juz posted...*Smilez*...

Guezz wad...I passed out from my BMT on Friday morning and man i was so happy that my first step in army lyfe is over...Overall i think i did all i could to do my best for BMT...I had my 24km route march last Monday at East Coast Park...It was super tiring and hungry and sleepy too coz we started marching from about 9pm to 4am...But i guezz our heart kept us going thinking how proud our family would be to see us do our best...I still remember one of my seargants said [Tough Times Don't Last But Tough Men Do]...We then had our Pass Out Parade on friday...I was on the front row keeping still waiting for commands to be given...I njoyed myself and felt really proud to be standing tall now finally a soldier...I know i can improve myself in times to come so i will continue to keep going...

Aniway...Went out wif Bob,Lala,Ryan & Atika for sheesha at Clarke Quay...As usual janji Melayu ehk Bob...Haha...Headed to Clarke Quay and it was packed with soccer fans from MAN UTD & LIVERPOOL...We took a seat at the Marakeesh and ordered Cappucino sheesha with two mineral water each cost $9...Damn itz so expensive...But what to do...Haha...After that we headed off to go eat at Long John Silvers...And yar Man Utd lost 4-1...Haha...We then seperate ourselves...Ryan & Atika headed home while me,Bob & Lala followed me to the Arsenal fan club...Met my fren there who bought for me a cool jersey from KL...FOC Dude...Haha...Me and Bob went crazy watching the match and it was worth it as Arsenal won 4-0...Yep!!!

Then,off we go took a taxi with my fren where he paid for the fee...WOW...Really appreciate his kindness...Thx dude...

And so here i am posting blogs on and on...But yar i am heading off to Malacca around 5plus am...So gotta go and will be back to post more...Tc aitez...

~FiR~

>HoW LoVe HaS AfFeCtEd mE<

LoVe is an easy word to pronounce and spell...
But everytime I think about LoVe itz so hard to explain...
The perfect word for me to describe LoVe is 'CoMpLiCaTeD'...

I do think that falling in LoVe is sweet and romantic...
I smile to myself when i think about the LoVe that i had before...
I feel that sharing all this can relax my mind abit...
I feel too tired keeping all this confidential...

Believe it or not the first LoVe i had was in my first year in ITE...
Yep!!!Itz true alrite...It felt like moon...
But i had to let her go bcoz she broke a big promise...
One more thing was i felt my family could not accept her over her attitude...
But i am glad she moved on and found a replacement...

My second LoVe was in the same year...
It was private that only a few people knows...
It actually started when i bcame a listening ear for her...
Then it changed as me lending her a shoulder to cry on...
As time goes our feelings for each other grows too...
But i was wrong coz she only used me to forget her ex...
From then on we parted ways and now she is happy with her new LoVe...

Ermm...My third LoVe was back in my second year of ITE...
I really felt that she was the person i was looking for...
It was the first time i celebrated Valentines Day wif sumone...
I specially came to her house to meet her and pass her the rose...
Guezz wad most girls dream of i did specially for her...
I stayed up the whole night to watch her sleep soundfully...
I also looked after her at her house when she was sick...
I spared most of my time to spend with her...
I even did sorry cards for her when i made a mistake...
I thought that giving my heart out would impress her...
But guezz wad she ask for a breakup to say she iz not ready...
And next thing i knew she was with another guy...
Thiz was the biggest LoVe breakdown i had...
I cried every single nite thinking of it...
But then i moved on...

I started to not believe LoVe anymore but then crushes started to appear...
It was one of my classmates...-F****-
I guezz they think i dun realize it but i noe a crush developed between us...
It started when i joke around with her...
Then it build further when i started to have feelings for her...
I even sacrificed taking long train rides instead of the faster bus rides...
I have that shy and nervous feeling everytime i took pictures with her...
I even set a pic we took at appreciation dinner as main pic of my hp...
Well I knew that she also had feelings for me...
And I would like to say sorry for not accepting her...
Not bcoz she is not my type...
But itz coz i dun wan to hurt myself the same way i did before...
I swear i felt regret when i knew she was meeting sumone new...
But i guezz my fate is to be single...
Haizzzz...

Erm...People may think that i am enjoying my lyfe being single...
But for me itz only partly true...
Everytime i go out for a walk i feel as if i am the only lonely soul...
Looking at couples around sumtimes makes my heart ache being alone...
Suddenly thinking of my past makes me quite sad though...

But not to worry coz i will feel better sumhow...
Thru music which helps me alot...
Thru frenz whom i can relax with...

Most importantly is the motto that i always kept in my mind...
[I Live Lyfe Once So I Live Lyfe The Fullest]
[Forgive And Forget And Dont Hold Any Grudges]

SlAyEr FiR Is BaCk...

Heyhoooo...Wads up wif me huh...Have not been updating since...Lotz of stuff have been happening so far around me and to me...Have been fitter since i last posted a blog here...Haha...

I have officially graduated from my nursing course where i learned alot of new stuff & gained new experiences in the long waited 2 years of hardwork & determination...Even if my results were not that outstanding but damn what i know is that i had done it...Finally,itz over wif skul and soon work will have to come...I will cherish the times spent at skul wif my fellow classmates whom i hope will keep in touch wif me even during busy moments...It was quite sad though coz i did not get to attend the graduation ceremony bcoz of my outfield...But i felt so proud wen my frenz told me i appeared in the graduation video...*KeMbAnG GiLeR aH*

Guezz wad huh...I joined NS on Jan 9...Was a shock to most of my frenz coz they got to noe about da news that i was enlisted abit late...Actualli wanted to make it low profile but den sumhow news travel...Sorri yar...Gained alot of new frenz there and sumhow learned more or less a few new thingz...Already had my outfield 2 weeks ago and it was super tiring but damn interesting sey...Den i juz had my live firing previous Monday & Tuesday and *WOW* I scored a total score of 29/32 which is considered a marksman result...So happi wif my score...Erm...so most of it has been going well so far except that i got confined & even RT before...But best of all is i am going to have my P.O.P(Passing Out Parade)in 2 weeks tyme...YAHOO!!!

Aniway...I think sumtime during this tyme last year was the last tyme i had a gal by my side but too bad though coz maybe destiny is not on my side...So have been packing my schedule wif lots of thingz to do...Even now wen i go out i feel quite lonely coz wen i look around,here & there couples are roaming everywhere...But for me coping wif thiz must suit me sooner or later coz i don't think of having anione for da timebeing...I will juz relax myself by hearing music to make my mind think of other thingz...

Kay den...I guezz thiz all 4 now...Will pop in here soon...Hopefully yar...Caoz...